What was I thinking?

What was I thinking about starting a diet on the week of Halloween and without going to the grocery store? I'm setting myself up for failure. Actually, I've done better than I thought I would but only with great restraint.

I got on the scale today. While I wish I didn't have to face the number staring back at me, I know I need to face it so that I can start making better decisions. It's a starting point and I hope it will go down from there. Ideally, I would like to lose ten pounds before Thanksgiving. I think it's doable. It's funny because I always seem to do better dieting during the fall and winter. I'm not sure why, but I'll take it. I'm trying to be careful this week because I haven't really planned out menus or done any serious shopping yet this week. I'm going to try and work up a menu this week and hit the store over the weekend. I did manage to get to Wegmans briefly yesterday and picked up a couple of bags of salad and some tuna.

I did ok on eating yesterday. Not great but not terrible either. I had eggs and toast for breakfast and then some Cesar salad for lunch. Dinner could have been better, but again, no groceries and a trip to Wegmans. I had a half of a turkey and Swiss sub. It was delish. I also had an apricot beer that was out of this world delicious. I also had some baked chips and a couple (who am I kidding...a few) pieces of Halloween chocolates. I ended up the day with 1803 calories. According to the iFitness on my iTouch it says for maximum fat loss I need 2080 calories, so I came in under that.

Today, I had my coffee for breakfast and nothing else. I start getting a weird feeling, like I need to eat now, around 10:30 so I had an apple and 2 tbsp peanut butter. That held me until lunch when I have just had a plate of salad with sweet and spicy tuna. Oh, and a couple more pieces of tiny chocolate. Baby steps, right? I did great on water today, but now I realize that I haven't had one glass yet today. Let me go do that now before Connor's live lesson starts.

New Day. New beginning.

I have like 5 minutes to check in before I start school with the boys. I just wanted to pop in and update. I woke up kind of nervous as to what I was going to eat to start my day off and decided on two eggs and two pieces of toast. I'm also sipping on my second glass of water.

I'm having a conflict of how many calories I should be consuming. The MyFitnessPal says that based on my height and weight that I should be eating something like 1300 calories. Two other places I've looked at have said 2080 calories. Now, in the past when I've done Calorie King I remember that my starting calories were up close to 2000. So, I'm going to go with the 2080 calories for a couple of weeks and see how I do.

Dang, I just realized that I didn't get on the scale today to get my start weight. DANG. I've eaten breakfast now, so I don't want to get on the scale. I will have to remember to do it tomorrow morning.

Picking myself back up.

Holy Jeebus it's been a while. It's been a wild ride. It's not been good on the waistline. I feel a serious funk coming on so I have decided to get this little blog out and dust it off.

This is just me dipping my toe into the pool so-to-speak. I'm going to spend the rest of the day doing some reading and catching up with some of my other weight loss bloggers. I'm going to figure out how I'm going to do this. I am not with Weight Watchers anymore. I think I'm going to use MyFitnessPal to track my calories in and my exercise. It's pretty basic. I need to eat fewer calories and burn more calories.

I plan on hitting it full on tomorrow. Hell, I might even start today (considering that the day is mostly over) and have a fruit smoothie for dinner. I know that I need to be careful with my goals and start simple and ease my way back into this. Every time that I start a new diet I try and do too many things at once and then I fail. This week I know I'm going to focus on making sure that I get enough water in. I will think about my other goal and hopefully have it set before tomorrow.

I need to give up the laptop right now so I will work on updating my blog and getting it freshened up in here. I will be back.

I'm still here.

Barely...but I'm still here.  April has not been as kind to me as I would have hoped, but I have no one to blame but myself.  Starting to sound like a broken record here.  My eating hasn't been all that great but I am happy to report that I am at least trying to walk every day.  In fact, I kicked some major booty on the treadmill last week. I kind of have my husband to thank for that.  Here's why.

You see, I want (need, no I guess it's a want) a new camera.  A really expensive camera.  A camera that I should probably insure once I have it.  I've been pining away for it for a couple of months now.  I was whining about how I would never be able to save up the money for it, about how it would take me forever.  I don't do well with patience...kind of why I always  give up on diets because it seemingly takes forever to lose the 100 lbs plus that I have to lose.  I digress...my husband, knowing that I'm easily bribed made me a deal.  He put it out there that for every minute that I walk I can earn a dollar.  It was slow going at first, but last week I did 2 hours of walking in one day.  I didn't do it all at once. I broke it up into 15 minute increments.  At 45 minutes past each hour the kids would get a break from school and I ran downstairs to jump on Johnny (treadmill).  I'm almost to my half way point of my camera and now I'm starting to ponder lenses.  Tim got scared because I started cranking out the minutes so he said that after I get my camera the payment will drop back to fifty cents a minute.  It's all in good fun.  In reality, I could go out and buy the camera tomorrow but now it's kind of a game and I'm making sure that I'm not making an impulse purchase.

So, I have the exercise slowly humming along,  I just need to get my eating under control.  I also need to figure out my digestive issues.  My gut is so bloated and I can't figure out why.  I'm pondering doing a juice fast for a day or two.  I'm trying to eat yogurt to get the good bacteria in there but find that I have to gag that down because of the slimy consistency.  You know, now that I'm thinking about it, I may not have been eating as bad as I thought.  I have been having a bowl of cereal for breakfast and a salad for lunch and then a light dinner.  It's the damn snacking that is bringing me down.  I feel like I've gained ten pounds but I think a lot of that is from me feeling so bloated.  TOM should be here now, but he's a couple of days late.  I'm guessing he'll be knocking on my door in a day or two.  

Bottom line.  I'm picking myself up, dusting myself off and getting back on the scale (wii fit) on Monday.  I'm logging into WW online and I'm going to start tracking points again.  I'm not going to get irritated that I have to key everything in right now.  I'm going to continue to walk and work towards my camera.  I'm hoping I'll be able to blog more often.  I need to find time to do that because it does feel good to come and get all this off my chest, even if it is at quarter to one in the morning.

Thanks to everyone who has been checking on me to make sure I'm still around.  I am and I am going to start getting serious again.

April already?!

Thank you ladies for the butt kicking.  I got on the scale on Saturday and had found that I had gained 4 pounds.  Not as bad as I had thought.  I was a little peeved, but not surprised.  I have no one to blame but myself.  As of today I've lost three of those pounds.  Part of my loss has been because of my tummy troubles I think.

I think I might have a food allergy or something that is making me feel horrid.  I'm going to eliminate dairy first and see if it gets better.  I can't really think of what it might be. I haven't really changed my eating all that much in the last month but have not been feeling all that great.  I am almost to the point where I'm going to make a doctors appointment.  My belly is just tender to touch and I always feel bloated and gassy.  It has made me a miserable person to be around.  That and I have had near migraine headaches every day since Monday.  I don't know if it's the change in seasons or my body rebelling.  Whatever it is, I'm over it. I want to get back on track.  I want to get back on Johnny.  I want to have energy to do the things I need to do.  I want to stop being grumpy. 

I made a decision today about my WW.  I joined online.  Here's my train of thought on the matter.  The price.  The last time I got stickers for meetings, it was 79 dollars for 10 weeks.  Online it's 65 dollars for three months (12 weeks) and then after the three month period it goes to 16.95 a month instead of 13 dollars a week for the meetings.  Also, there is so much online!  I love to track things online. I'm a gadget geek.  I much prefer having access to the online tools, which I could have signed up for an additional cost.  I can put my fave meals in and have them saved.  It keeps track of my points.  I think I'm in love.

So, ladies and gents.  It's the first of April.  March was kind of a lost month for me.  April is new.  The weather should start warming up.  I am going to hit it this month and aim for ten pounds lost.  If I only  lose 5, then I'll be happy with that.  I just need to get myself healthy and enjoy Spring.

Presenting....

I am presenting my ass for a virtual ass kicking.  (_l_)  Kick it.

I don't know what has been up with me.  I haven't posted in a couple of weeks. I  have thought about it.  I have, really...but then don't have the gumption to do so.  I have been eating completely and I mean totally off program.  Not one point has been counted.  I'm in a grumpy mood.  I'm exhausted.  I have excuses, but that is all they are.  Every day I have told myself, self, today is the day you get your butt back on the wagon.  Not only did I fall off, it left me behind.  I haven't been on a scale in a week. I'm scared to get on.  I know I will have to and face the damage that I've done.  I know that once I do I will be shocked and awed back into doing what I'm supposed to.

Focus. I lost it.  I have been focused on everything else but myself this month.  There are potential huge changes happening in our family in the next year and I'm trying to figure out how to deal with that.  I'm trying to figure out how to do something for myself that I have always wanted to do but can't really afford right now.  I'm trying to keep up with the kids' schooling.  I'm over the cold temperatures and not being able to go out and feel sun on my skin.  Blech.

So, here it is 3:42 in the morning. I  can't sleep and I am trying to figure out how to get back on track.  I guess I'm going to baby step it and start by making better choices.  I'm going to have to take it one day at a time.  I have to go back to writing everything down that I put into my mouth. I'm going to take a break on the picture taking for this blog.  It takes up a lot of time, time that I don't seem to have right now.  I will put my eats on here so that I have a journal of them.  

I think that is all I have for now. I have to email our fearless leader Angie and hope that she doesn't kick me off the team.  I guess I'll get on the scale tomorrow so that I can report my (what I'm sure to be huge) gain and stay on the charts.  I'm going to hope that I can at least pull a good week of loss off next week.

I haven't figure out what I'm doing with my WW yet.  Do I continue going to the meetings?  I've missed two weeks in a row from being sick and then being exhausted from a weekend trip.  Do I sign up for the online WW?  My mom is doing the online one and has hit 20 pounds lost so far.  She even joined Curves.  I'm so very proud of her.  =)  I'm not sure what to do with it.  I think it's cheaper to do it online.  We are trying to live a bit more frugally and that may be the way I go for now.  I guess I'll wait a couple of weeks to make my decision.

I hope everyone else out there is doing better than I am.  I haven't checked in on anyone for a long time.  I guess I'll go do that now while I'm waiting to get tired again.

Who woulda thunk it?

When you stay on program, you lose weight?  Shocking, I know. I've been OP all week and every day I've seen the wii fit scale slide down.  I was just looking at my calendar that I record daily weigh ins in and I'm now below where I was before I got sick.  Remember that I got that two day flu and dropped like 4 pounds and then put it right back on.  So, now I'm down from where I was before I got the flu.  I am happy with that.

I'm feeling kind of weird today. I don't know if I'm getting sick again or if something I ate didn't agree with me but my belly is tender today.  I had my morning cup of joe when Tim got up and left for work, but didn't eat anything.  I finally just ate (around 10:15) and I'm hoping I will feel a little bit better.  If not, I'm going to be careful with what I eat today.

Breakfast:

coffee, sugar, ff half n half, oatmeal, pb2, 15g choc chips, 20g dried blueberries, 9 Points